Alright you guys. This is going to be a somewhat "vulnerable" and embarrassing post. By embarrassing I mean that I don't feel proud of the things I'm going to share, but we are all human and I hope you understand where I'm coming from; perhaps you can even relate? Normally I don't like to talk about this type of topic because I can't seem to express my thoughts through writing without sounding like a whiner. Moreover, I don't want it to come off as a pity post in which I want everyone to feel apologetic and obligated to me in any form whatsoever, so let's be on good terms from the get go. With that in mind, let's move on to this coffee talk, shall we?
If I had to be completely honest to myself (and to you), lately I'm a roller coaster ride of all sorts. Hello postpartum that-time-of-the-month hormones! I'm really sorry that I'm disclosing this topic on a (mainly) food blog but yes, I didn't have to deal with any of that for a whole year+ after having Selah. It was one of the YAS! moments which has unfortunately come to a halt, haha. I mean, all things good and bad come to an end, don't they? But all that unpleasant talk aside....I'm not sure if it's hormonal shifts that are taking place, but I realize these days I'm quite fickle when it comes to making decisions for my own self. These decisions aren't based so much on life or death, but more of where some of my passions are leading me. As much as I love to blog and share the ins and outs of life with this amazing community, I also find myself questioning whether or not I'm making a difference. Like, at all. You see, I'm one of those people who need to do things with purpose and seriousness. If I don't see something beneficial and purposeful coming out of that endeavor which ultimately should bless others, I automatically want to throw in the towel. Sure, comments and interaction fluctuate as that is the norm for any endeavor we pursue, especially blogging. And even though I know that doesn't determine the cloud of influence I have on others, one night I'll go to bed thinking "agghhh what's the point?" and wake up the next morning feeling rejuvenated and excited to get in the kitchen--ready to share recipes with the whole world and most importantly, the gift of encouragement I have to offer to my readers. I've been swayed in that manner back and forth for a few months now, but I've come to the realization that I truly am passionate to be a part of this community and (hopefully) am able offer some insight to that one "lost sheep". I figure this goes for anything in life. When we know we are in the right place, then that's all the assertion we need to go ahead and make a difference in one person's life. So whatever is brewing up in the dark abyss of your brain right now, get rid of those thoughts and turn them to good ones. Don't give up unless you know you're supposed to!
As I said earlier, sometimes all it takes to gain inspiration for me is to get a good night's sleep. You know how it goes. Lack of sleep can really mess with your emotions and science backs it up. And there are other times when I go out for a walk at the weekend farmers market and inspiration springs up everywhere, like fresh harvest waiting to be reaped. That is a really fun feeling, you guys. :)
When I came across this tiny pot of fresh lavender at the farmers market, I knew right then that I would be soon obsessed with the stuff. Not only am I day dreaming of making candles and whatnot (we'll see about that, ahem), but I'm really excited to include it in some of my dishes, particularly baked goods. However, I do not advise that you use lavender from actual nurseries because they can be bitter and probably not good for your health due to pesticides. After realizing that fact post-excitement of buying said plant, I got these cute little dry buds from Whole Foods so we wouldn't die from chocking on soap flavored food. It only rends about 3 teaspoons but thankfully it is extremely affordable. I took the liberty to make a simple syrup out of these lavender buds and it couldn't have been easier! Here's the recipe that's really not a recipe.
Lavender Maple Simple Syrup
Makes approximately 2 cups
1/2 C pure maple syrup
1 C water
1/2 C raw cane sugar (or white)
1 tsp vanilla extract
2 tsp dry lavender buds
Place a small pot on low-medium heat. Add all the ingredients in the way they are listed and simmer for about 5 minutes. Stir often. When it's cooled down you can pour it into a glass container or jar, making sure it's airtight. Refrigerate for future use.
So thank you for your constant support. Thank you for being you and for allowing me to be a part of this community filled with such talented and creative individuals! I hope to be a blessing to you as much as you have been to me.
Have you ever used lavender in your cooking? If so, how was your experience?
How do you deal with negative thoughts when it comes to blogging? Or anything in life?