This past week has proven that it is possible to feel all of ten thousand emotions at once. Worried, thankful, busy, tired, excited, giddy, sunburned (eh?) and the list goes on. Selah has been going through a serious growth spurt of character and let me be the first to tell you, it isn't all giggles and smiles. Her toddler ways are finally showing their true colors behind that sweet & innocent facade (I kid about it being a facade), so this momma is definitely on her toes nowadays! Any of you moms or aunts going through this right now?
There is another reason why it was such a hectic week, though. Today I began a new season in my life, or should I say, our lives? I started work again, you guys! The catch this time around is that it only consists of one work day a week. I know this isn't a lofty pursuit as many of you work full time already, but for this stay at home momma working one day a week is a huge deal. Not only is finding a sitter for Selah a daunting task in itself, but I would definitely need a full time job that makes it all worthwhile.
We've been needing the extra income but knew that God would still provide for all our needs...We just didn't know how He would do it. And to be honest, there were times when my heart was filled with tumults of doubt and fear. The question of who in their right mind would want to hire me for just one day would paralyze me, and just when I thought I'd lost hope while perusing every website to no avail, a thought came to mind: "Why not call (insert friend's name)? Her family business might have the perfect opening for you." Without fear of hearing "no" I took that next step--only to find out that I had been hired on the spot. I mean, who does that?! A caring employer, and most importantly, God. That's who.
While my mind was speaking out anxiety and doubt, God's voice was shouting reassurance and faith. He lead me through the valley where just enough light illumined the way, only to take me up the mountain where I could admire the beauty of His grander plans from afar. He whispers to me, "see? I told you I'm trustworthy because you are far more precious than the lilies in the field." Do you guys believe you are that precious in His sight? I want this to serve as a reminder that not all is lost when circumstances appear to be barren. Life rarely presents itself in one big puzzle, but rather, God allows us to put the pieces together bit by bit so as to grow in love and in trust. I guess one could say--there's beauty in the unknown because that's where we find strength and courage.
In what ways do you find yourself doubting these days?
What are some mountains in your mind that you've overcome recently?